Going Home, DLR Help
Posted: Wed Jan 14, 2009 5:42 am
Long ago I was very sick from celiac and food allergies as well as other stuff. It has taken me a long time to clean out my body and even today I am reacting to some baked goods. Only recently did I find out that I have SID/SPD and have many autistic/spectrum traits though I am not on the spectrum.
I lost my dear DLR when a group of pin traders hounded me and made my life hell at DLR. They pushed buttons and used their CM friends to their advantage. They hated those of us who did not cheat, steal and shark our way to good pins. They made racist remarks to me, made me feel inferior and spread rumours. Eventually I was removed from the park and my pass taken because of these people's lies and rumours that I sold pins. I traded a few for hot dogs but never got cash for any pini on the monorail, DTD, DLR or any Disney property.
Because of the SID and my neurovariations and other quirks I am having a hard time going back. Some people would have returned the next day or month but I am having a hard time going back out of fear that I will have security after me or worse run into them people again. I have quirks that trigger unwanted responses when things are not fair and when people need help. I have stood in ankle deep water in the rain starting a car and have given half what I had in the bank to people.
I first went to DL in october of 1960 and rode the Bobsled as a toddler. I cried with the CMs and was there for the moments of silence after 911. I had a family of friends who were there when I got not gifts on my birthday and sat in the rain freezing while that couple talked with me and cheered me up. DLR was my home and was my haven of rest and playground. I want to go home but am so scared that I will get in trouble again for something I do not do.
What I Need to go Home
1. Annual pass: I want my premium pass back but doubt I will ever be able to afford any pass. I will not take comp tickets as I will not risk someone getting in trouble. I am not asking for gifts either. I might save up $30 a month. This month I gave Calvin Around $500 and that is half or more of our disposable income. I could have used that for a new fridge or stove.
2. ECV: I have a wheelchair but do not want people killing themselves pushing my fat butt. I can get me an ECV probably through medical programs but the garage leaks and I have no way to transport the ECV other than city busses. I could take a bus to DLR but that is like 2 long and painful hours. Mobility is the biggest problem.
Yesterday I rolled out of bed and got wedged between the bookcase and bed. That was a slow decline to the floor but the hurting part is that I finally got the bed moved and back on it. I then got out of bed and tripped over a mountain of blankets and pillows. I took out my knees and wrist so I need an ECV or herd of strong men to push my chair as I cannot walk far without pain.
3. I must have someone with me in the park like a companion. Someone to keep me in line, be a witness, and keep me from getting into trouble. This is a must have as I could not go back without someone as I have them quirks that some people use to get me in trouble.
4. Food: I am in the bathroom lately because of the eggs and stuff in the baked goods. I have celiac and other food sensitivities. I would have to know what and where I can eat at.
tht is about it for now and I do not want hand outs. I am on disablities board at disboards and if you see me there then you know what I am going through. I am slowly trying to undo things and retrain myself and mom who is very much a neurovariant but not sure what. Probably autism, aspergers, or SID/SPD. Who knows as she is old and her ways go back many years. I want nothing but that people have patience and understand that I am not like them. I sit here crying and tired and needing sleep but the wiring in my brain is wrong and I will keep pushing until I pass out at the keyboard. I help people and fight against injustice and bad stuff because my wiring is messed up.
I just misss my friends and the park so much. It was a place I loved and miss dearly. I want to go home.
I lost my dear DLR when a group of pin traders hounded me and made my life hell at DLR. They pushed buttons and used their CM friends to their advantage. They hated those of us who did not cheat, steal and shark our way to good pins. They made racist remarks to me, made me feel inferior and spread rumours. Eventually I was removed from the park and my pass taken because of these people's lies and rumours that I sold pins. I traded a few for hot dogs but never got cash for any pini on the monorail, DTD, DLR or any Disney property.
Because of the SID and my neurovariations and other quirks I am having a hard time going back. Some people would have returned the next day or month but I am having a hard time going back out of fear that I will have security after me or worse run into them people again. I have quirks that trigger unwanted responses when things are not fair and when people need help. I have stood in ankle deep water in the rain starting a car and have given half what I had in the bank to people.
I first went to DL in october of 1960 and rode the Bobsled as a toddler. I cried with the CMs and was there for the moments of silence after 911. I had a family of friends who were there when I got not gifts on my birthday and sat in the rain freezing while that couple talked with me and cheered me up. DLR was my home and was my haven of rest and playground. I want to go home but am so scared that I will get in trouble again for something I do not do.
What I Need to go Home
1. Annual pass: I want my premium pass back but doubt I will ever be able to afford any pass. I will not take comp tickets as I will not risk someone getting in trouble. I am not asking for gifts either. I might save up $30 a month. This month I gave Calvin Around $500 and that is half or more of our disposable income. I could have used that for a new fridge or stove.
2. ECV: I have a wheelchair but do not want people killing themselves pushing my fat butt. I can get me an ECV probably through medical programs but the garage leaks and I have no way to transport the ECV other than city busses. I could take a bus to DLR but that is like 2 long and painful hours. Mobility is the biggest problem.
Yesterday I rolled out of bed and got wedged between the bookcase and bed. That was a slow decline to the floor but the hurting part is that I finally got the bed moved and back on it. I then got out of bed and tripped over a mountain of blankets and pillows. I took out my knees and wrist so I need an ECV or herd of strong men to push my chair as I cannot walk far without pain.
3. I must have someone with me in the park like a companion. Someone to keep me in line, be a witness, and keep me from getting into trouble. This is a must have as I could not go back without someone as I have them quirks that some people use to get me in trouble.
4. Food: I am in the bathroom lately because of the eggs and stuff in the baked goods. I have celiac and other food sensitivities. I would have to know what and where I can eat at.
tht is about it for now and I do not want hand outs. I am on disablities board at disboards and if you see me there then you know what I am going through. I am slowly trying to undo things and retrain myself and mom who is very much a neurovariant but not sure what. Probably autism, aspergers, or SID/SPD. Who knows as she is old and her ways go back many years. I want nothing but that people have patience and understand that I am not like them. I sit here crying and tired and needing sleep but the wiring in my brain is wrong and I will keep pushing until I pass out at the keyboard. I help people and fight against injustice and bad stuff because my wiring is messed up.
I just misss my friends and the park so much. It was a place I loved and miss dearly. I want to go home.