http://mechurchlady.deviantart.com/journal/21039146/
http://mechurchlady.deviantart.com/journal/21039535/
I hide a lot about me that you can read in my journals. Those journal entries are the first time I talked about things that not even my closest friends or family know about. As stated the diabetic cannot feel the pain of a cut or a blister but people do not scream at them. I on the other hand cannot sense when I am in trouble. I hate unfair things. Why can someone do that but not me? I trust too easily strangers once I get to know them. I have trouble adjusting to new things.
http://www.sensorysmarts.com/signs.html
Read up on SID. I have never been diagnosed for any mental illness or handicap. In fact I had to go out to a celiac event and get tested for free and on my own. I have a lot wrong with me physically but I try never to bring that up as why make them sad. I first knew about SID about a year ago but thought it was just my weird eating habits then I read the above site. I have been told that I have autistic tendancies but am not autistic. This is because there is a high rate of SID in autistic kids. How bad is it?
My list:
# Intense, out-of-proportion reactions to everyday experiences
# Resists changes in routines and moving from activity to activity
# Unusually high or low activity level
# Difficulty handling frustration
# Seems impulsive, with little or no self-control
# Problems paying attention and staying focused
# Dislikes getting "messy" - cheap napkins irk me and I have food issues related to this
# Has poor balance, falls often, or runs awkwardly
# Seems weaker or less coordinated than other children his age
# Doesn't seem to hear you, although you know he can hear
# Withdraws, "tunes out," or cries in group situations
# Avoids foods most children of same age enjoy
# Craves or avoids particular food textures-chewy, crunchy, slippery, etc.
# Frequently chews on clothing or hair (stopped as a kid)
# Poor handwriting and drawing skills
# Speech-language, motor skill, or learning delays
# Inconsistent sleep and hunger patterns
# I love snug clothes but not over tight.
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Needs and wants
Don't pity me as I am not that bad off and will adapt
understand that I am not willfully doing some things and that it is a natural thing for me to do like resisting change.
Watch over me. When I am tired or stressed then SID is bad. I need admins and mods to delete posts when needed. if I am making you uncomforable then tell me in private.
NO MEANS NO. Something happened at Disneyland which was my haven of rest and pease and fun. That is in the past. The problem is that I will not go near the parks. The last time was when I stopped for much needed gasoline. SID is 99% of this. When something bad happens then I shutdown and will not go to that spot again. I was not in trouble at Knotts but I have not been back since before the riots. I just was not happy there and bored. The only way I am going back to DLR is if they give me full pardon, a full annual pass AND an appology for the heineous stalking and harrassment by one CM and 5 others. Even then I would need someone big like CB and Wallaby and kind like MS Matterhorn and Purpura. I have thought about what if I was a billionaire, could I go back, not without bodyguards and strong enterage with me.
I at times feel like the little girl sitting on the porch while her friends are inside partying. The little boy who cannot climb up into the tree house. I do not want special treatment but at the same time I hope that people would do unto me and I would do onto them. My friend asked that I drive so I did and if my friend said we could not eat in a certain place then so be it. I guess SID has warped my ideas of Freinds.
Gifts, yep, a trip to WDW and an ECV and chocolates and ice cream and a pony farm. Actually I have no needs and want nothing from my friends. I had a CM friend who got me into a CM preview once and another CM got me into a movie free on his birthday. I really do not want gifts but do want friends and angels. I do still have the gifts that friends over the years gave me like Figment and them pins are on my bookcase. I never want anyone to think I am using them to get something.
I am tired and need to rest.
Hugs
Laurie
Read the Journal please.